depressed by wad u all did
but wil juz kip all these negative feelings aside
n concentrate on my EOY
***
my leg is injured!
ouch!
***
injured leg,wounded soul
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my shortest post ever
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i tink?
***
Lolz

long time nv update le
i tink i broke my record lor
its been one week plus le
haha
so im not tt completely addicted to blogging!
(:
***
i went for YiDA's autograph's session
at j8 last nite!
its cool.
hes rather cute in real live
hehe
got his auotgraph in e end
q-ed for like 2 hrs?!
but im happy
hoho
stupid.
***
dunno wad happened la
we r drifting apart
n e feeling is not dere le
i tink im being totally selfish
telling him,
giving him hope
den destroy everytink
i shld not have been so chong dong in e first place
hai
i really dunno how to clear dis mess now
how to let him noe
yet not hurting him
hes online now too
but we r not toking
i set my profile to away
i dunno how to face him.
im confused.
y muz dis type of tinks happpen?
i guess everytink act ended since e day i go n meet him.
nt tt im disappointed wif him or anytink.
juz tt e feeling stopped since tt day
was act tinking,
if we did not meet,
will everytink be alright now?
or maybe i shld not have told him in e first place.
im usually not sum1 hu acts on impluse.
wad's wrong wif me?
wad happened to me?
i shld have know tt its common for ppl at my age to crush ppl.
i mean CRUSH ppl.
its qt a nice feeling act.
liking sumone.
but y muz i spoil dis feeling by telling him?
i shld have know tt it won last.
its only a passing stage.
din reply his sms for several days le
hope tt dis will stop soon
***
EOY cuming le
will work real hard
and dun tink of anytink else.

YiDA's autograph session is on 26/8
at 7.30pm
at j8!!!
i WANA go!
but mum sure won allow one la...
aiya!
y not on sat?
den i can go
*sad*
i REALLY WANA GO
):
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i flunked my maths
and
i screwed up my chi speech
really tok like...
locket
):

was feeling v blue juz nw
whn i was typing the previous post
heh.
im not trying to escape out of my life la
it is juz my reflection aft listening to a song
hehh
in case u ppl still dunno,
im crazy over shi kang jun nw!
lolz
***
went to bugis yest wif my classmates!
too bad esti couldn't go!
):
in e end
only left the two of us shopping ard bugis
qt xian la!
but realised both our taste qt similar man!
haha
was v tired by the end of the day
heh
***
fri's carnival@marina was rather boring
at least for me la
dunno y but the display juz dun seem to be able to arose my interest
the only nice tink abt the whole event was tt we were dismissed early!
yay!
took the trian hme frm marina bay
wif shao qi!
she alighted three stops b4 me!
but it was qt gd la
at least dun need to endure the whole journey by myself.lol
***
y is it that sumtimes whn tinks r far frm u
u will have a burning desire to have it
but whn its so close to u
juz a few more steps n u will reach it.
but y is it that at dis time,
the desire to have it
seem to have disappear
maybe dis is wad they call
imaturity
(is dere such a word?)

judgement

why is it that sumtimes,
ppl juz carn accept certain things.
wad is the definition of wrong
and correct?
sumtimes juz feel like escaping out of this world
to a better place
where ppl dun judge so often
by their definitions of wad is wrong
or right
but is there such a place in this pathetic world
where ppl can stop judging others
for once in their lives?
i mean wad's wrong wif being not normal?
wad's wrong wif liking sumone
or rather loving sumone
of ur own gender
im not saying here that im one of them
neither am i saying that i can understand hw exactly they feel
but juz imagine urself
not being accepted in the society
juz because u love sumone
whom u r not supposed to love
how will u feel?
maybe sum ppl will explain tt
dis juz the way god made all of us.
but if we can turn back the time
to the start of the world
to the minute god is juz about the decide our characteristic
n if we manage to persuade him to make gals like gals
n boys like boys,
will those "normal" ppl nw be deemed as "abnormal"?

happy birthday, yida!
(:
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dying for maths test le la
):
***dunno wad to say
dunno wad to do
but tinks between us nw
r juz comfortable
(:

tuesday studied a lot at hme
frm morning till late aftnoon
den went to compass pt
heh
hw?
my maths going to die le la


today went for the lunch appointment
was very awkward
but still managed to survive
dunno hw he feeling nw
muz be so disppointed wif me
im juz such a stupid person
haiz

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tml is the day of death
maths is going to kill me
***

today is a half sad, half happy day!
racial harmony makes me so tired!
i hate setting up and looking aft a booth!
its pure tiring
):
n the saree is making me sweat like mad!!!
i almost DIED of heat la.
anw, i tink my class's indian dance was great!
well done all the dancers!
(:
aft the tiring morning,
went to j8 wif jieying, jingying and jieying's sis
heh.
intended to watch charlie and the choc factory at first
but guess wad?
yes! the tickets were sold out!
):
and the best tink was,
it was sold out RITE b4 my turn!
wad the???!!!
n the best best tink was we bought the food b4 we realised tt the tix were sold out!
tt's the most stupid tink on earth
so we ended up eating pop corn at the open plaza of j8!
but its qt nice too la,
we had a rather nice long long chat
(:
heh.
n i went to uy jones shi kang jun's cd!
its marvellous man!
im listening to it nw.
heh
his voice is so attractive!
(:
my jj cd can rest at the drawer le
heh
(:
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ninety fifth post.
studying tonite
maths test on thurs
dunno wad will happen on wed
(:
**l*
lastly,
happy national day
((:

qt a nice day ba
decided to blog so tt tt stupid post will nt be on top
my gbk is dying soon!
ppl!
pls help to save my gbk by signing it!
if u happen to pass by my poor little blog
which is totally unsignificant
im lame today
dunno y too
watching charlie and the choc factory tml
wif jy n her sis!
heh.
have a lot of tinks to tell her
these few days tinks r really progressing so fast
until i dunno hw to descibe
need to get in out of mind desperately
but carn find sumone to tok to
muz really make use of the chance
n have a nice chat wif jy tml
(:
hope e movie will be nice
heh
LOL!
*i suddenly like the colour red

its nt over
but neither has it begun
its still e same
although i feel relieved tt i took e first step
at least i dun need to contain e feeling anm
at least i dun need to hint here n dere
at least i dun need to guess if hes feeling e same way too
kind of glad by the way he responded.
at least i noe hes concerned abt my feelings
n at least i noe
he cares.
(:
i tink its best to be fwens nw
for the time being
while we cont to tink abt it
n while he concentrate on his studies
:/

really tired dis few days
weekend was damn damn busy
nt to forget tt its fun too
(:
saturday
thanks ppl!(u noe hu u r)
im the KING
im the QUEEN
lol
heh.
n i dun like jason tan kok khian k?
my heart is still wif leon!
*blushes*
sunday
amah!!!
heh.
i tink only u find the joke funny lor
hey you jiu shi ni,
xiang kuo jing wo huai li
yong ni ge wo de chi bang fei
heh
lolz
its was qt a tiring day though
hah
i slept at nine!
totally ignoring my geog timed piece today
luckily it was nt tt bad
heh
will update soon
whn im free
heh
approaching my 100 posts soon
WOW!
(: