sick
am really sick
as though my head is splitting
my joints r breaking
my throat is burning
my nose is running
my feet is wobbling
e earth is turning
juz feel so so so sick
went to a doctor yesterdae
but im nt much better
only have MC for one dae
meaning tt i muz get well by todae
den can go back to skol tml
sick
im sick
real sick
so sick tt i carn even type properly
so sick tt i carn even spell properly
so sick tt i carn even tink properly
Sunday, February 27, 2005
nt motivated to do work anymore...
have dis sudden urge to study
but juz dun feel like doing so
its like having the angel n e devil in my heart
rite nw,
e angel is telling me to go n do my work
but e devil is asking me to blog
obviously,im obeying e devil
which im nt supposed to
i guess we humans need more power to overcome tempptations like dis
n to learn hw to sae no firmly to e devil in our heart
still have my history rite up to do
but here i am blogging
chatting online
i juz feel so guilty
but yet at e same time
unable to control myself
i noe tt angel is e one tt im supposed to listen to
but sumhw
in one way or another
we tend to listen to e devil
i tink tt's hw ppl make mistakes
worse tink is,
whn we feel guilty for our wrong actions,
we will find e moz ridiculous excuses 4 our mistakes
i admit tt im such a person too
though i noe its nt correct n i need to change
but its hard
real hard
4example rite nw
my excuse 4 nt studying is tt im sick(im really sick)
but i mean,
if im really sick till i carn study,
den hw can i blog?
i noe its juz excuse
all r excuses
but hw can i find a way to stop myself frm making excuses???
tiredness swept me away
as i suddenly realised
im juz nt motivated
nt tired
nor am i sick
have dis sudden urge to study
but juz dun feel like doing so
its like having the angel n e devil in my heart
rite nw,
e angel is telling me to go n do my work
but e devil is asking me to blog
obviously,im obeying e devil
which im nt supposed to
i guess we humans need more power to overcome tempptations like dis
n to learn hw to sae no firmly to e devil in our heart
still have my history rite up to do
but here i am blogging
chatting online
i juz feel so guilty
but yet at e same time
unable to control myself
i noe tt angel is e one tt im supposed to listen to
but sumhw
in one way or another
we tend to listen to e devil
i tink tt's hw ppl make mistakes
worse tink is,
whn we feel guilty for our wrong actions,
we will find e moz ridiculous excuses 4 our mistakes
i admit tt im such a person too
though i noe its nt correct n i need to change
but its hard
real hard
4example rite nw
my excuse 4 nt studying is tt im sick(im really sick)
but i mean,
if im really sick till i carn study,
den hw can i blog?
i noe its juz excuse
all r excuses
but hw can i find a way to stop myself frm making excuses???
tiredness swept me away
as i suddenly realised
im juz nt motivated
nt tired
nor am i sick
Friday, February 25, 2005
lalala
decided to put back e tagboaRd
i tink tt's e only way ppl can express their feelings to me...
n wad they wana sae to me
but e template problem is driving me nuts...
nvm
will find an expert to solve them soon
it was easier den i tink...
lucky,
coz i did real bad 4 e previous tests
guess am quite relieve
coz maths is alawys my bad subj.
life is really exciting
none can ever guess wad will happen nx...
juz live it e way u tink is correct
den i tink everytink will be fine
maybe
life will juz work its own way out
leaving us confused n puzzled
yet at e same time amazed by its power
maybe
we shld all accept e fact tt
we carn control life
coz life will control itself
i luv all of u guys
i treasure all of u deep in my heart
forgive me for wad i have done to u
all e suaning n stuff
i only mean it as a joke
dun be angry wif me k???
im juz such a person
nv noeing whn i had pushed e limits of sumone
nv noeing whn i had really hurt sumone
n its nt gonna turn out as a joke
i will reflect
n learn
n chnage
give me time,
i promise i will
i tink tt's e only way ppl can express their feelings to me...
n wad they wana sae to me
but e template problem is driving me nuts...
nvm
will find an expert to solve them soon
it was easier den i tink...
lucky,
coz i did real bad 4 e previous tests
guess am quite relieve
coz maths is alawys my bad subj.
life is really exciting
none can ever guess wad will happen nx...
juz live it e way u tink is correct
den i tink everytink will be fine
maybe
life will juz work its own way out
leaving us confused n puzzled
yet at e same time amazed by its power
maybe
we shld all accept e fact tt
we carn control life
coz life will control itself
i luv all of u guys
i treasure all of u deep in my heart
forgive me for wad i have done to u
all e suaning n stuff
i only mean it as a joke
dun be angry wif me k???
im juz such a person
nv noeing whn i had pushed e limits of sumone
nv noeing whn i had really hurt sumone
n its nt gonna turn out as a joke
i will reflect
n learn
n chnage
give me time,
i promise i will
Thursday, February 24, 2005
beginning to wonder whether had my brain gone rusty alr...
of course im still tinking everydae...
on skol works
on projects
on assignments
on tests
on portfolios
n on many many more
but i seem nt to tink of life anymore...
y??
too busy
too distracted
or am i simply juz plain lazy???
used to have dis nite tink thingy whneva i carn sleep at nite
but nw,
it gone
is reflection nt important to me anymore???
but im still reflecting
if all e nespaper reflection can be counted
but,
r they counted???
or r they counted only as my skol work
one of the many others
life is still amazing to me
but i have seem to grown immune to e many tinks in life
till i carn feel e little happiness in life anymore...
its scary
or is it juz part of growing up?
whn all tt faces me r uncertainty
n puzzleness???
will dis stage go?
or will i remain like dis 4 e rest of my life
or worse,
r all grown ups feeling dis way too???
of course im still tinking everydae...
on skol works
on projects
on assignments
on tests
on portfolios
n on many many more
but i seem nt to tink of life anymore...
y??
too busy
too distracted
or am i simply juz plain lazy???
used to have dis nite tink thingy whneva i carn sleep at nite
but nw,
it gone
is reflection nt important to me anymore???
but im still reflecting
if all e nespaper reflection can be counted
but,
r they counted???
or r they counted only as my skol work
one of the many others
life is still amazing to me
but i have seem to grown immune to e many tinks in life
till i carn feel e little happiness in life anymore...
its scary
or is it juz part of growing up?
whn all tt faces me r uncertainty
n puzzleness???
will dis stage go?
or will i remain like dis 4 e rest of my life
or worse,
r all grown ups feeling dis way too???
Sunday, February 20, 2005
y i really wana delete e blog is coz i tink its getting really boring...
n narrative
new blog
new style
will nt be a narrator anymore..
but rather juz let it be a book of my tots
n no more tagboard
no more needing to plead for ppl to tag my board...
no more links
no more worry of linking ppl wrongly...
no more e lazy me
no more slacking n enjoying
instead
it will be a new me
a me tt will work extremely hard
to get rid of all my short points
n try to be a better person
no more being so silly
n innocent
but i'll be a more mature person
hu won even tink of
tinks tt r unrealistic
n narrative
new blog
new style
will nt be a narrator anymore..
but rather juz let it be a book of my tots
n no more tagboard
no more needing to plead for ppl to tag my board...
no more links
no more worry of linking ppl wrongly...
no more e lazy me
no more slacking n enjoying
instead
it will be a new me
a me tt will work extremely hard
to get rid of all my short points
n try to be a better person
no more being so silly
n innocent
but i'll be a more mature person
hu won even tink of
tinks tt r unrealistic
began to tink again on e issue...
maybe i was really to hurried at tt time...
maybe it shld nt have even began...
guess both of us are juz nt ready yet...
u is nt wad i want
n im nt wad u wants
tink things will may betta dis way
exactly e same like e past
although its a short one
it is still a wonderful memory
n i will treasure it 4eva
:))
thanks
4 everytink u have given me
maybe i was really to hurried at tt time...
maybe it shld nt have even began...
guess both of us are juz nt ready yet...
u is nt wad i want
n im nt wad u wants
tink things will may betta dis way
exactly e same like e past
although its a short one
it is still a wonderful memory
n i will treasure it 4eva
:))
thanks
4 everytink u have given me
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